If you read my latest blog post, then you know I’m not okay. If not, click here. I’m having a slight moment, and some would say the things that are making me sad are first world problems. Maybe? But it doesn’t change my feelings.
But at the same time I do feel guilty. I mean I have a roof over my head, my car has been repaired to live another day, a job I actually like going to, an amazing family and some of the best friends a girl can ask for so why should I not be okay. I mean I’m sure there are people praying for all these things now. So what if I’m not married, have a baby or that I’m not a big blogger who cares?
Me! I care. But I also feel guilty for caring. Life could be so much worse, I know and I should be thankful for what I have right? And I am…super thankful so why do I feel guilty?
Does society make me feel guilty, people, family, etc. or is it just me? Am I just out here making myself feel guilty because I have issues LOL! I’m not sure who is making me feel guilty, but I do know I need to let it go. I mean, how I can say it’s okay to not be okay, but then feel guilty about it. Oxymoron right?
I swear every time I think I have it all figured out something else comes up. I guess what my mom always says is true “just keep living.”
Well, I plan to and maybe, just maybe one day I will have it all figured out. Yeah, right…that will never happen. LOL!
XO
Crowned CaNesha